Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I HATE THIS ECONOMY

I hate it because they are just picking on the little people. The greed of this country is settling in, no one is happy with what they got. I don't even have enough to pay my rent and it's sad. While I wanted to figure out what I wanted to do in life, when I finally found my nitch.... GUESS what the economy blew up. When I want to be educated I seem to have the tough time trying to get back into school. And when I was going to apply the financial aid wants it back. Good luck with getting my lil bucks. I can't buy food, all of my pants have holes in them, and I am writing my first novel in hopes that I can move room into my life. I have a great boyfriend, but I cannot even enjoy him because I have all this heap of stinking dog shit on me. I don't even have any tears left that I can squeeze out because I am so frustrated. How does a person like me end up like this?? I'll let you why because I am too nice to take advantage of people and to do them wrong or harm. I know how it feels.

I am going to be 32 and I have never had a credit card and I have always had terrible bosses even though I am great to them. I have been used and abused yet I look to the brighter side of life and say to myself that this is all temporary. And it will be temporary if I have to die trying to make it happen my god it will be.

I am not much for praying. I haven't been in awhile because I just haven't. But I am going to keep going, I am going to break through that wall and make sure it will happen. It will.