I hate it because they are just picking on the little people. The greed of this country is settling in, no one is happy with what they got. I don't even have enough to pay my rent and it's sad. While I wanted to figure out what I wanted to do in life, when I finally found my nitch.... GUESS what the economy blew up. When I want to be educated I seem to have the tough time trying to get back into school. And when I was going to apply the financial aid wants it back. Good luck with getting my lil bucks. I can't buy food, all of my pants have holes in them, and I am writing my first novel in hopes that I can move room into my life. I have a great boyfriend, but I cannot even enjoy him because I have all this heap of stinking dog shit on me. I don't even have any tears left that I can squeeze out because I am so frustrated. How does a person like me end up like this?? I'll let you why because I am too nice to take advantage of people and to do them wrong or harm. I know how it feels.
I am going to be 32 and I have never had a credit card and I have always had terrible bosses even though I am great to them. I have been used and abused yet I look to the brighter side of life and say to myself that this is all temporary. And it will be temporary if I have to die trying to make it happen my god it will be.
I am not much for praying. I haven't been in awhile because I just haven't. But I am going to keep going, I am going to break through that wall and make sure it will happen. It will.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
I LOVE MY HAIR!!
I LOVE MY HAIR. So my homegirl Sabrina cut my hair off last year. I was trying to save it, but I wasn't taking proper care of my hair in the first place. It was permed, dried out and falling out. Needless to say, it needed a change. So July 4, 2008 Sabrina "D.J. BrinaPayne" cut it off. I feel liberated.
It has been a whole year and my hair looks and feels great. I love how it is course and shines and looks healthy and looks better. Now I must say it is work but when I can't afford the $60 hair treatments every two weeks, taking good care of my hair means something to me.
I thought about locking my hair but that's out the window, I want that Diana Ross to be honest. I know that ain't all her hair but I want my own hair to be like that.
I remember my mothers hair being like that. I miss that lady. Until then. peace!
It has been a whole year and my hair looks and feels great. I love how it is course and shines and looks healthy and looks better. Now I must say it is work but when I can't afford the $60 hair treatments every two weeks, taking good care of my hair means something to me.
I thought about locking my hair but that's out the window, I want that Diana Ross to be honest. I know that ain't all her hair but I want my own hair to be like that.
I remember my mothers hair being like that. I miss that lady. Until then. peace!
Sunday, December 6, 2009
DREAMS ABOUT DEREK
FINALLY!!! FINALLY!!!
Dreams About Derek is alive. My god. I have been working on this story for over 15years and I am so humble and happy that I am able to share my thoughts with the world. This has been a long time coming and I am happy that I was patient with myself.
What is Dreams About Derek. Well it is a three part Graphic Novel about a young mother named Derek who finds out that she is part angel and has great powers during the end of days. I was kinda scared to write it and put it out there because of the content of the book. But I thought with all this other stuff out there, I might as well give people something interesting to read and to see. Originally Dreams About Derek was just going to be a novel, but the idea of Derek being a black superhero was much more of an eye catcher to me.
This book is dedicated to so many people who have inspired my life but especially goes out to my late White Grandpa Philmore Thomas Payne Jr. He was quite a man and quite a soul that the earth is indeed missing.
With that. Please, Please, Please go to my website at www.dreamsaboutderek.com , I will be updating and keeping everyone posted about the progress of the novel. Until then take care and Love you all!
Peace!
Chrystal L. Prather
Dreams About Derek is alive. My god. I have been working on this story for over 15years and I am so humble and happy that I am able to share my thoughts with the world. This has been a long time coming and I am happy that I was patient with myself.
What is Dreams About Derek. Well it is a three part Graphic Novel about a young mother named Derek who finds out that she is part angel and has great powers during the end of days. I was kinda scared to write it and put it out there because of the content of the book. But I thought with all this other stuff out there, I might as well give people something interesting to read and to see. Originally Dreams About Derek was just going to be a novel, but the idea of Derek being a black superhero was much more of an eye catcher to me.
This book is dedicated to so many people who have inspired my life but especially goes out to my late White Grandpa Philmore Thomas Payne Jr. He was quite a man and quite a soul that the earth is indeed missing.
With that. Please, Please, Please go to my website at www.dreamsaboutderek.com , I will be updating and keeping everyone posted about the progress of the novel. Until then take care and Love you all!
Peace!
Chrystal L. Prather
Dark Skin, Bleached Skin
I don't understand why some black women are resulting into bleaching their skin because of what someone else thinks. I mean it's not all of us, but a choice few who will now alter their lives off of what other motherfuckers think about them. Why is this happening?
I have been dark skinned my entire life and I have been teased to no end, but I knew I was beautiful regardless of what anyone else thought because I looked at my self and was happy with what I saw on the outside. On the inside...maybe I had to change a few things about myself but I did. None the less I felt very good about the way I looked.
The reason that I have heard why some dark-skinned black women are chemically changing their skin tones is because of men or wanting a man and not being what this man is looking for physically. But to alter yourselves? I don't get it because the women I see doing this are naturally beautiful, I mean drop dead gorgeous. And when they bleach after awhile it seems like they are forever ashy. *SMH*
I dunno what to say to women who do that or give any advice because most of them are determined and not gonna listen, but don't damage your healthy skins. Please don't. I am begging you. Find what you love about yourself and the way you look before you do it. I don't live for no one but myself. Please, please, please try and do the same.
I have been dark skinned my entire life and I have been teased to no end, but I knew I was beautiful regardless of what anyone else thought because I looked at my self and was happy with what I saw on the outside. On the inside...maybe I had to change a few things about myself but I did. None the less I felt very good about the way I looked.
The reason that I have heard why some dark-skinned black women are chemically changing their skin tones is because of men or wanting a man and not being what this man is looking for physically. But to alter yourselves? I don't get it because the women I see doing this are naturally beautiful, I mean drop dead gorgeous. And when they bleach after awhile it seems like they are forever ashy. *SMH*
I dunno what to say to women who do that or give any advice because most of them are determined and not gonna listen, but don't damage your healthy skins. Please don't. I am begging you. Find what you love about yourself and the way you look before you do it. I don't live for no one but myself. Please, please, please try and do the same.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Introduction
Hello, I am a 30 year old woman from Seattle living in Brooklyn, NY. I have no children but a great boyfriend that I am happy with. It's hard being from a place that is calm to come to a place that is not so calm. My calmness is always confused as being naive in the Big City, but it's just that I am in their territory everything to them is suspect. I am who I am and I come from a different place. The Emerald City. Even in that place it has it's downs and LOTS of them.
I don't even know where my life is gonna go, I have many thoughts just sometimes my mind gets jumbled into a million pieces so it's hard to focus. I want good things just as the next person wants. But it's hard to see that..... maybe I should just act a fool online and then get famous from there, it seems it works for alot of people. But I am creative and I cannot do that to myself.
Anyways, here I am at a job that I do like just alot of work and alot of information thrown at me or shall I say half information thrown at me and I have to get the other part on my own. Supposedly that's how it has to work. I probably will say somethings on here that'll piss people off, but I am honest. I try to be at least. This is all for now. More la'ers. Take care.
I don't even know where my life is gonna go, I have many thoughts just sometimes my mind gets jumbled into a million pieces so it's hard to focus. I want good things just as the next person wants. But it's hard to see that..... maybe I should just act a fool online and then get famous from there, it seems it works for alot of people. But I am creative and I cannot do that to myself.
Anyways, here I am at a job that I do like just alot of work and alot of information thrown at me or shall I say half information thrown at me and I have to get the other part on my own. Supposedly that's how it has to work. I probably will say somethings on here that'll piss people off, but I am honest. I try to be at least. This is all for now. More la'ers. Take care.
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