Sunday, April 25, 2010

When "Old" Comes

When I say "when old comes" what I mean is the people that were once a significant part in your life that like to come back because they can see your potential success. Maybe they didn't see the potential in you before, but now since you have changed your life, they come back especially when the see the progress.

Ever since I was a little girl I have always wanted more. It was something that was going to happen when I felt the need to do it. Yes, I partied when I was in my late teens and all of my 20's but now things are different and I want MORE. I am striving on getting more and I am gonna let my bad grammar pave the way to my success. LOL!

But what I am talking about ladies and gents are old boyfriends and girlfriends. You know the ones that you used to cry over all the time, spent many of nights talking to your friends about them and pawning about any lil good thing that they have done and ignoring most of the bad things that they have put you through. The ones that broke your heart to pieces. But now since you have the right person in your life and someone who supports you and because your passionate about your life.... somehow they want in.

In the last week since my sister has been here visiting I have seen a couple of boyfriends that at the time didn't take me serious at all and now since I have been writing they have came out of their way just to tell me how proud they are of me, compliment my relationship and then on the sly say something to keep the convo going. I really don't like it what so ever and maybe I am still raw about it. I have always seen myself as a successful person even through the trails and tribulations of my life. I knew where I was going, where I wanted to be. I just decided to live a lil before I made any real decisions in my life.

I would always talk about the things that I have wanted with the old ones and just because they didn't see it, I saw it and that's all that matters. But what I didn't like was they didn't pay attention. When you are with someone you do want them to pay attention to you and what you think and believe even if they don't they can listen to you. My dreams were always big and I knew that I would do whatever it takes to be successful but I like to take my time. At this moment in my life I have the perfect person who understands who I am and I understand him and it's a great feeling when someone believes in what you do. (Thank you Mal)

The whole point of this post was just to get something off of my chest. But I am truly a lucky girl to have someone who is awesome to me and sees me and accepts me for who I am.




Friday, April 16, 2010

KICK ASS ---- Kicks Ass!







I loved it. Although it was a tad bit violent but if you read the graphic novel you would expected it to be violent. I liked it and it was fun. I wouldn't let kids see it unless they were 16 and older. Because of it's violent content I think younger children wouldn't know how to react.

Nicholas Cage did a wonderful job in the movie and not over playing the part. Like most Nicholas Cage movies you hear the gruff and this time it was without the gruff. The main character KICK-ASS aka Dave Lizewski (Aaron Johnson) just a cutey pie and played the part well. He got into the character and showed us the human side of KICK-ASS now let's make sure that he knows how to fight so he won't get his ASS-KICKED anymore. LOL!

The best of all was HIT GIRL and she was HITTING. That lil girl was nothing to be reckoned with and she had no regards in killing people. Which was weird but that's the movies for you. Pretty much entertaining to the fullest. Discretion is advised in this movie.





Friday, April 9, 2010

SPRING SUMMER

I feel that this is going to be a very hot summer this year. It's skipping spring already and I have yet to get my backyard together. That really needs to happen this week if I am wanting to enjoy being out there.

So my birthday is this Sunday and I am so excited about celebrating it the way that I want to. LOW KEY. I went to Branch Brook Park in Newark, NJ to see the Cherry Blossoms and they were completely beautiful. I had so much fun but I ended up baking in the sun it was so hot. Here are pics that I took. Enjoy!






Sunday, April 4, 2010

So I got called a "Nigger"

So a big Russian guy comes in my job and calls me a "Nigger" because no one was available for a massage. I already knew what he was looking for...a hand job and when I told him I do not have anyone available he proceeds to yell and tells me that I am racist because he's a Russian and I am a "Nigger".

This is one of those times where I went off but before I did I went outside of my body just to make sure I was seeing this clearly. I was sitting down at the desk. He must have thought that I was short because when I stood up I was looking him in the eye. (He wasn't expecting that).

I told him to get out shooed him out the door. I shouldn't get this upset about it but I was. Just makes me aware of how much racism and ignorance is still out there. I am pretty sure he thinks Obama has something do to with me telling him no. Lol!

I cannot lie and say that it didn't sting because it did. The only reason why I cried is because I was at work and I couldn't hit him. The last time some white man called me a "Nigger" I made sure he would never step to any black women and say that shit again. But then I wonder; This is the 3rd time in my life where a white male has called me that.... do I look that vulnerable? Hmmm...

OLD SKOOL pics of Mama & Daddy




This pic is my Dad and Uncles at my cousins baby shower cira 1978! lol!

The Pic with my Mom and Dad had to be when I was 5.

Perfect Parts Pilates!!

I am gonna make a date to do this soon. Will be back with a follow-up.

Ms. Dallas Fuentes (Pilates Instructor)


www.perfectpartspilates.com

Happy Easter and All but....

I know I should feel Happy about this Easter but it's bitter sweet. While I have a new family, I miss my family and wish they were closer. But the love from them and us remembering each other is well worth it.

My heart right now is raw. Because I cannot get my mind wrapped around what's going on in Trenton, NJ. with A 7-year old lil girl being sold by her step-sister and raped by grown men.

It's Easter Sunday and the last thing this little should have on her mind is healing mentally and physically from some men hurting her and threatening her life. My God have we humans come to a point where we have no hope for life that we become barbaric people? I was 19 when I was rapped and you don't get over that when someone hurts you like that and the fact that she is a baby, they both are babies??? My first reaction to this story is that all of those men involved should be beheaded on a stand in front of witnesses. Barbaric and just. Hell I would do it myself.

That baby should be Easter Egg hunting with a pretty white dress with white gloves and black shiny shoes, having fun with other kids her age. Now she's suffering from nightmares and facing fear and it saddens my heart to the core when I hear about this news. What happens to her life now? Even though she may not know me but I am being strong for her and I want her to know that she is in my heart America stands right beside her and men like this should not be allowed prison. That's too good for them.

*smh*

Thursday, April 1, 2010

I AM YOUR HERO!!

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I WANNA BE A MODEL!!! FORD CAN YOU HELP ME!!!!



Yes I said it. I'm 32 and people always think that I am a model. But I was sometime and that's because I was on the heavier side of life. NOW Since I think I can do this modeling thing now. I am gonna put up some pics of my sexy self and let the world see me for the beauty that I am. LOL! Oh yeah also I got featured on HEY FAT CHICK blog. Please visit the site.