Thursday, February 18, 2010

Hard Knock Life

It is a Hard Knock Life and I think everyone is feeling it now. I know I am and trying to keep an positive outlook on life takes much more energy than I have right now. Trying not to cry every few min is even harder. Not that I am being lazy, I am taking all the avenues that I have access to and nothing seems to want to work. Damn economy!!! Damn the government and damn all those greedy bastards that shoveled all the money in their pockets.



What gives and how do we live? It is really as bad as they say or are they keeping us on a string like rats scrambling for any crumb that they can find.

LOL it's all good though. We gon' make it!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Ahhh Things Are Tight But They Get Better

So as it seems my life wants to cave in around me, I still see the light and I am moving forward. Since I have made myself an author I feel good about my accomplishments in getting all of my writing done. I am this close to getting "Dreams About Derek" out in the public eye. I had write another short story that will be done and illustrated by the end of this month. I am so excited. My first project done and I cannot be happier about it.

Since my creative juices have been flowing I have started another Graphic Novel which honestly the name met set some people off, so I think I am going to rename it. *shrugs* Yeah, Yeah.... I know why change something that I feel is great, welp because a lot of folks would be mad at me personally and I cannot have that. But I will titled it to what I like.

This adventure has been great and I am throughly enjoying every second of it. Oh my I forgot I will be attending the East Coast Black Comic Convention this March. YIPPIE!! Until then take are people.

Please visit my website www.dreamsaboutderek.com the short story will be on the site.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I HATE THIS ECONOMY

I hate it because they are just picking on the little people. The greed of this country is settling in, no one is happy with what they got. I don't even have enough to pay my rent and it's sad. While I wanted to figure out what I wanted to do in life, when I finally found my nitch.... GUESS what the economy blew up. When I want to be educated I seem to have the tough time trying to get back into school. And when I was going to apply the financial aid wants it back. Good luck with getting my lil bucks. I can't buy food, all of my pants have holes in them, and I am writing my first novel in hopes that I can move room into my life. I have a great boyfriend, but I cannot even enjoy him because I have all this heap of stinking dog shit on me. I don't even have any tears left that I can squeeze out because I am so frustrated. How does a person like me end up like this?? I'll let you why because I am too nice to take advantage of people and to do them wrong or harm. I know how it feels.

I am going to be 32 and I have never had a credit card and I have always had terrible bosses even though I am great to them. I have been used and abused yet I look to the brighter side of life and say to myself that this is all temporary. And it will be temporary if I have to die trying to make it happen my god it will be.

I am not much for praying. I haven't been in awhile because I just haven't. But I am going to keep going, I am going to break through that wall and make sure it will happen. It will.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I LOVE MY HAIR!!

I LOVE MY HAIR. So my homegirl Sabrina cut my hair off last year. I was trying to save it, but I wasn't taking proper care of my hair in the first place. It was permed, dried out and falling out. Needless to say, it needed a change. So July 4, 2008 Sabrina "D.J. BrinaPayne" cut it off. I feel liberated.

It has been a whole year and my hair looks and feels great. I love how it is course and shines and looks healthy and looks better. Now I must say it is work but when I can't afford the $60 hair treatments every two weeks, taking good care of my hair means something to me.
I thought about locking my hair but that's out the window, I want that Diana Ross to be honest. I know that ain't all her hair but I want my own hair to be like that.

I remember my mothers hair being like that. I miss that lady. Until then. peace!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

DREAMS ABOUT DEREK

FINALLY!!! FINALLY!!!

Dreams About Derek is alive. My god. I have been working on this story for over 15years and I am so humble and happy that I am able to share my thoughts with the world. This has been a long time coming and I am happy that I was patient with myself.

What is Dreams About Derek. Well it is a three part Graphic Novel about a young mother named Derek who finds out that she is part angel and has great powers during the end of days. I was kinda scared to write it and put it out there because of the content of the book. But I thought with all this other stuff out there, I might as well give people something interesting to read and to see. Originally Dreams About Derek was just going to be a novel, but the idea of Derek being a black superhero was much more of an eye catcher to me.

This book is dedicated to so many people who have inspired my life but especially goes out to my late White Grandpa Philmore Thomas Payne Jr. He was quite a man and quite a soul that the earth is indeed missing.

With that. Please, Please, Please go to my website at www.dreamsaboutderek.com , I will be updating and keeping everyone posted about the progress of the novel. Until then take care and Love you all!


Peace!

Chrystal L. Prather

Dark Skin, Bleached Skin

I don't understand why some black women are resulting into bleaching their skin because of what someone else thinks. I mean it's not all of us, but a choice few who will now alter their lives off of what other motherfuckers think about them. Why is this happening?

I have been dark skinned my entire life and I have been teased to no end, but I knew I was beautiful regardless of what anyone else thought because I looked at my self and was happy with what I saw on the outside. On the inside...maybe I had to change a few things about myself but I did. None the less I felt very good about the way I looked.

The reason that I have heard why some dark-skinned black women are chemically changing their skin tones is because of men or wanting a man and not being what this man is looking for physically. But to alter yourselves? I don't get it because the women I see doing this are naturally beautiful, I mean drop dead gorgeous. And when they bleach after awhile it seems like they are forever ashy. *SMH*

I dunno what to say to women who do that or give any advice because most of them are determined and not gonna listen, but don't damage your healthy skins. Please don't. I am begging you. Find what you love about yourself and the way you look before you do it. I don't live for no one but myself. Please, please, please try and do the same.